It's coming back again

I introduced myself as someone who is ...

A person who tends to get lost in her life when she starts to think 
"what is the meaning of my life?"

Well, this thought is coming back to me again and again lately...

Sometimes, I'm really afraid of changes.
So I tried to stop myself from asking.

But the questions will still come and I need to make decision eventually...

Hopefully, the timing is right and I have the courage and determination to do so.

HAPPY CNY 2013

Another spring cleaning to welcome the new year.

Let's get rid of unwanted things, 
tidy up and, 
decorate!

A toast to spring cleaning for the house and the mind!

Happy Chinese New Year 2013 ^^  

Another year to come

Let's write down wishes or aspirations for another new year!

Well, there's one thing that I'm truly reluctant to fill in for next year ......

.........AGE ........

Happy New Year 2013!

Gradually

I wish I can achieve my goals as soon as possible.

So, I just rush through and hopefully that I'll be lucky to achieve my goals.

It turns out that achieving goals really need patience...

Body starts to give signals when I forgotten about balanced life.

So, now I've decided to achieve my goals gradually, be it work, academic, or spiritually.

I'm not going to compare myself with others anymore ... 

just do it gradually ...

After so many years ...

"Your grandma is very good in cooking. Everything she cooks is delicious! " praise of my grandpa to my grandma while I was having dinner at their place.

My grandma smile and laugh when she told me that she became grandpa's "eyes" when his eyes were swollen during the dinner.

Few years back, my grandpa wouldn't praise my grandma for anything.

I only know my grandpa like to criticize my grandma and also from my mother's experience.

Lately, he told my mum and auntie that he doesn't know what to do if grandma would pass away before him.

My grandpa finally realize that my grandma is all he has. 

Now, grandpa and grandma are very happy couple at the age of 70++.

"We miss the most important thing because of the least important thing". I learned this from a talk.

If grandma hasn't tolerate with grandpa, I wonder what will happen ...

What makes me happy

Eating dessert doesn't make me happy any more ...

Eating chocolate doesn't make me happy any more ...

Fulfilling my goal just make me happy for a moment ... and I even wonder am I truly happy at that moment ...

What makes me truly happy ??? 

Ain't the same anymore

Time have passed by so fast.

I thought I'm having less desire and clinging for friendship, team work etc ...

But it turn out to be not what I thought ...

I still hope for happy return or response. 

When things doesn't turn out to be what I would have expected, I felt quite disappointed. 

Maybe it's time that I just have to admit that many feelings just ain't the same any more no matter how much I wish it would still be the same.

Maybe sometimes, there are things which I should learn to let it remain as memory.
This could be just the best gift for everyone ... including me.