Another year to come

Let's write down wishes or aspirations for another new year!

Well, there's one thing that I'm truly reluctant to fill in for next year ......

.........AGE ........

Happy New Year 2013!

Gradually

I wish I can achieve my goals as soon as possible.

So, I just rush through and hopefully that I'll be lucky to achieve my goals.

It turns out that achieving goals really need patience...

Body starts to give signals when I forgotten about balanced life.

So, now I've decided to achieve my goals gradually, be it work, academic, or spiritually.

I'm not going to compare myself with others anymore ... 

just do it gradually ...

After so many years ...

"Your grandma is very good in cooking. Everything she cooks is delicious! " praise of my grandpa to my grandma while I was having dinner at their place.

My grandma smile and laugh when she told me that she became grandpa's "eyes" when his eyes were swollen during the dinner.

Few years back, my grandpa wouldn't praise my grandma for anything.

I only know my grandpa like to criticize my grandma and also from my mother's experience.

Lately, he told my mum and auntie that he doesn't know what to do if grandma would pass away before him.

My grandpa finally realize that my grandma is all he has. 

Now, grandpa and grandma are very happy couple at the age of 70++.

"We miss the most important thing because of the least important thing". I learned this from a talk.

If grandma hasn't tolerate with grandpa, I wonder what will happen ...

What makes me happy

Eating dessert doesn't make me happy any more ...

Eating chocolate doesn't make me happy any more ...

Fulfilling my goal just make me happy for a moment ... and I even wonder am I truly happy at that moment ...

What makes me truly happy ??? 

Ain't the same anymore

Time have passed by so fast.

I thought I'm having less desire and clinging for friendship, team work etc ...

But it turn out to be not what I thought ...

I still hope for happy return or response. 

When things doesn't turn out to be what I would have expected, I felt quite disappointed. 

Maybe it's time that I just have to admit that many feelings just ain't the same any more no matter how much I wish it would still be the same.

Maybe sometimes, there are things which I should learn to let it remain as memory.
This could be just the best gift for everyone ... including me.

Mission accomplished

Before I get there, I imagined that I would be very happy when I could finally give out the present.

In the end, I just felt like a mission accomplished. 

There was nothing.

When there is no label, there is no feeling of joy or sadness ...

Anyway, happy graduation day for all ^^ 
May all your dreams come true very soon ^^

被遗忘的梦想

自从一切都已经安定下来,
每天几乎是一样的.

最近, 因经济不景气,
电视节目播放关于鼓励有梦想, 
勇敢实现梦想的故事.

我的梦想是什么 ...

It's just there

What is not under my control, could not be mine ...

However, I just feel so frustrated and upset!

I guess I still haven't walk out from the trauma of accident last year ...
though I just have very minor muscle pain only after being hit  ...

Whenever I see traffic light, I'm so scare that it will suddenly turn to red...
Do I have enough time to stop ???
Will I be hit by another car?
Will I hit other car?

Those thoughts just keep coming back from time to time though I know it just delusion ...

Once, I saw a car knock on a lady at the zebra line because the driver did not wait for green light...

I started to be extra careful whenever I see the traffic light for pedestrian ...

If I have passengers with me, I feel extra pressure because I'm in charge of their safety ...

I still have to drive although I still carry this fear with me...

Now I understand why a colleague of mine is unable to drive after the trauma of hitting a person ...

Those thoughts just couldn't stop ....

I hope that these delusions will completely fade away one day ...

2012

又一年过去了.

一切似乎都改变了，但似乎仍然没有太大的改变 。

寻找改变，或只是希望一切都保持不变?

五月天的"乾杯"提醒了我昔日的好时光...

如今仍然是好时光, 希望未来大家也依旧拥有好快乐幸福的美好时光!!! ^^