"让我来帮你拿吧!"
"你好!"
"谢谢你!"
还有那真诚的眼神和态度(不分任何友族)，都让我感动不已!
或许，不是或许，是肯定的，
有一天我会对我的工作感到疲倦，厌倦。
希望到时候，我会自己提醒自己:
以前有许许多多美好，值得高兴的事，都是这份工作给你的!
现在可能有很多的阻碍，负担，而让你透不过气。
但请记得，是谁让你感动?
是谁让你有机会不白白虚度此生?
你，是为谁，为什么，而活的呢?
是为烦恼，是为欢喜，是为计较?
希望你千万别埋怨他们，别放弃他们!
请珍惜他们还未被令人发觉好的一面!
Thursday, May 31, 2007
Tuesday, May 29, 2007
Look up!
Do you still remember the days of getting onto and into the "BAS SEKOLAH"( school bus)?
I must say that I love "BAS SEKOLAH" very much!
Other than making new friends and going new places, I love to lie down on the seat and look up to the trees through the big window!
The leaves and the branches are so near and so beautiful, yet I can't reach them!
The leaves and the branches are so near and so beautiful, yet I can't reach them!
Those photos are just taken today.
I look up and snap!
Do you know what tree is it?
Monday, May 28, 2007
Saturday, May 26, 2007
Just painting (2)
I like bamboo especially when they are expressed in chinese painting.
These paintings were paint about two or three years ago.
However, I still can't draw it like what I'd see.
So, one day, I shall go to learn how to paint and draw in chinese painting.
Maybe, when I'm old and got some extra money then...
Just painting (1)
The upper painting was the first painting I draw for fun during my first year.The lower painting was actually a pocket file I painted when I was in Form 3.
After post it here, I found that both of these paintings do have something in common.
I guess sometimes there are just things that would remain the same even after years have passed.
好，为我的结局作准备! Alright, get ready for my ending
我不知道我的结局会是怎样!
但，肯定的是，一定逃不过"生老病死"!
岁月真的不会饶过任何人，我已经开始老了啦! (可是心还不老哦)
小毛病也已经开始浮现了啦! (以前连老虎都可以打死几只呢，哈哈)
一眨眼，也该快‘那头’近了啦! (想到都怕怕，好像还有好多东西没做呢)
不怕不怕，
现在开始规划还来得及呱?
我，已经踏出我的第一步了哦!
我自己去参加了跟我老本行有关的活动。
虽然没有朋友陪伴，但还是要鼓励自己去参加啦!
毕竟，这世上没有同一个人是可以永远陪伴我们左右的。
这，不也是人生的必经之路吗?
好，我这就开始了。。。
我可不想等到连体力和心力都没有时才叹气。。。
但，肯定的是，一定逃不过"生老病死"!
岁月真的不会饶过任何人，我已经开始老了啦! (可是心还不老哦)
小毛病也已经开始浮现了啦! (以前连老虎都可以打死几只呢，哈哈)
一眨眼，也该快‘那头’近了啦! (想到都怕怕，好像还有好多东西没做呢)
不怕不怕，
现在开始规划还来得及呱?
我，已经踏出我的第一步了哦!
我自己去参加了跟我老本行有关的活动。
虽然没有朋友陪伴，但还是要鼓励自己去参加啦!
毕竟，这世上没有同一个人是可以永远陪伴我们左右的。
这，不也是人生的必经之路吗?
好，我这就开始了。。。
我可不想等到连体力和心力都没有时才叹气。。。
I don't know how my life will ended up like!
But for sure, one would never escape from "live, old, sickness, and death"!
Time won't spare no body, I have started aging already! (but my heart is still very young oh)
Tiny sickness also started to appear already! (last time, I can even beat a few tiger oh! haha!)
With just a blink of eye, "the end" should also be near by already! (it's just feel horrible even to think of it. There's still a lot of things which I haven't done yet)
No worry, I think it is still enough time if we plan for our ending from now on?
I have taken my first step!
I went to participate in activities related to my job.
Although I have no friends to accompany me, I still have to encourage myself to participate!
As we know, there is no one same person can accompany us forever.
Isn't this is one part of our journey of our life which we have to go through?
Alright, here I go ......
I don't want to wait till all my stamina, both mentally and physically, burned out and just sighed then......
To let go
Let me made myself clear first: I'm not good in caligraphy writing. It's just for fun.
Surprisingly, when I read through the caligraphy writing during my days in yesteryears, I found that I've already told myself about my new journey.
"New journey (inner thought),
made up your mind,
no more addicted ,
for the past has gone"
After I finished reading it, my new life begins...
请让我先在这里澄清一下: 我写的大楷并不是很好看。我只是写来玩玩而已。
当我再次翻阅我以前写的大楷时，我觉得很惊讶! 原来我早就告诉自己关于自己的新旅程了。
"新路里(内心里)程，
下定决心，
不再迷恋，
往事已矣。"
当我读完它时，我的新路里程开始了。。。
知。。。(1) Know...(1)
我只知道有"知足"这一词，而不知道有"知止"。
"知止"是我从报章上得知的。
"知止 。 知足"
知道何时，如何在适时地停止，制止。 知道要记得提醒自己满足。
I only knew that there are "knowing satisfied", but don't know there was "knowing stop".
"Knowing stop" was learned from the newspaper.
"Knowing stop. Knowing satisfied"
Know when and how to stop and control at the appropriate time. Know that must remember to remind oneself to feel satistied.
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
Please, don't force me to be smart!
If someone tells me something about anything, as long as it is logic, I would have no doubts about them.
I choose to trust them.
Do you know why?
Because I believe the human nature is good at all course.
Maybe you'll say, "Please lah, there's no more good or kind human nature anymore in this real world! Wake up lah!"
Yes, I already knew this.
However, sometimes, I refuse to give up hope on human nature.
And, if I always had to think what's behind every words come out from people's mouth, I will be very tire of torturing my mind.
So, I choose to believe their words.
My ending?
Yes, your guess is right!
I was being cheated!
You might say that I'm stupid.
You might say that it was I who willingly to give them the chance to cheat on me! Who to be blamed then?
When next time I turn somebody down,
Please do not blame me for being cold blooded!
Why do you have to force me to be smart?!
WHY!!!!!!
The only story that still give me hope in human nature was a short story in a book I read before.
I couldn't remember the author and the title.
However, the story goes like this:
Once a person won a large sum of money. A poor lady carrying her sick baby and begged that person to help her sick baby. The person gave all his money won to the lady without any second thought. The poor lady, with her sick baby, went away quickly.
Other people saw the person giving away the money to the poor lady and told him,"You have being cheated! The lady always used the same old trick to cheat people!"
Then the person smile and said,"What a good news! There's no sick baby!"
I choose to trust them.
Do you know why?
Because I believe the human nature is good at all course.
Maybe you'll say, "Please lah, there's no more good or kind human nature anymore in this real world! Wake up lah!"
Yes, I already knew this.
However, sometimes, I refuse to give up hope on human nature.
And, if I always had to think what's behind every words come out from people's mouth, I will be very tire of torturing my mind.
So, I choose to believe their words.
My ending?
Yes, your guess is right!
I was being cheated!
You might say that I'm stupid.
You might say that it was I who willingly to give them the chance to cheat on me! Who to be blamed then?
When next time I turn somebody down,
Please do not blame me for being cold blooded!
Why do you have to force me to be smart?!
WHY!!!!!!
The only story that still give me hope in human nature was a short story in a book I read before.
I couldn't remember the author and the title.
However, the story goes like this:
Once a person won a large sum of money. A poor lady carrying her sick baby and begged that person to help her sick baby. The person gave all his money won to the lady without any second thought. The poor lady, with her sick baby, went away quickly.
Other people saw the person giving away the money to the poor lady and told him,"You have being cheated! The lady always used the same old trick to cheat people!"
Then the person smile and said,"What a good news! There's no sick baby!"
Preparing for the ENDING
When I was a little kid, I stayed opposite a temple.
And that's why my mum ordered us to go to sunday school in the temple.
Live, old , sickness and death were what I knew from the sunday school. However, I was too young to have any thoughts for these four words.
Years has passed. My observations has increased little by little.
The conclusion through my observation may not be the consequences and ending of my experience.
I've started to notice that if I'm lucky enough to have a family of my own, I would spent the rest of my life being a buzy bee for them. It is because I love my family.
When my children grow up, they will each have their own living.
And I would hoped that my soul mate would be still around, accompanying each other until the end of our lives.
I don't know whether will I stay single for the rest of my life, or that I could find my Mr. Right.
No matter how, I think I would stay single in the end.
Although I wish that I would leave this world earlier than my soul mate, but because I truly love him, I would rather see him finishes his life earlier than me. Only then I would really feel without any worry for him.
When I'm the only one left, what should I do then?
My children and my grandchildren won't be always accompanying me, so do my friends!
And that's why my mum ordered us to go to sunday school in the temple.
Live, old , sickness and death were what I knew from the sunday school. However, I was too young to have any thoughts for these four words.
Years has passed. My observations has increased little by little.
The conclusion through my observation may not be the consequences and ending of my experience.
I've started to notice that if I'm lucky enough to have a family of my own, I would spent the rest of my life being a buzy bee for them. It is because I love my family.
When my children grow up, they will each have their own living.
And I would hoped that my soul mate would be still around, accompanying each other until the end of our lives.
I don't know whether will I stay single for the rest of my life, or that I could find my Mr. Right.
No matter how, I think I would stay single in the end.
Although I wish that I would leave this world earlier than my soul mate, but because I truly love him, I would rather see him finishes his life earlier than me. Only then I would really feel without any worry for him.
When I'm the only one left, what should I do then?
My children and my grandchildren won't be always accompanying me, so do my friends!
Saturday, May 19, 2007
No, I couldn't stop...
My father had never let us down.
He always provided us with the best that he could gave it to his family, even when he was very ill.
He never complained and gave up his hope.
He just continues...
My mother always nag.
She was never satisfied with our attitude, because we are just too lazy.
But no matter how long she nag, she wouldn't really stop helping us to reorganized our things.
She just continues...
I don't really have any serious commitment yet.
So, I do have a choice.
I could always just stop at there and do nothing. Or just simply walk away.
But, how could I?
My parents never stopped!
He always provided us with the best that he could gave it to his family, even when he was very ill.
He never complained and gave up his hope.
He just continues...
My mother always nag.
She was never satisfied with our attitude, because we are just too lazy.
But no matter how long she nag, she wouldn't really stop helping us to reorganized our things.
She just continues...
I don't really have any serious commitment yet.
So, I do have a choice.
I could always just stop at there and do nothing. Or just simply walk away.
But, how could I?
My parents never stopped!
Friday, May 18, 2007
Have you ever think of stop doing something?
Um.....now I have a stable and steady job.
But,
I don't know.
Somehow, now I just keep pushing myself to move forward and non-stop!
It feels good to excel...
At the same time, however, I just wish everything is just nice and enough. So, I don't have to keep on pushing and motivating myself all the time.
They have high expectation for me. I can't let them down. I must move on.
I never felt demotivated before, even in the toughest time of my job.
I can't say that I'm totally demotivated now. I'm just hoping that my life would be a bed of roses. at least once in a life time.
Who wouldn't? Right?
I just hope to come to a stop where I could really stop myself from over-thinking about taking actions for my present and future life, and doing it!
Tick...tick...tick...and suddenly ................................................
The clock stops to tick.
The time continues to run.
But,
would it be enough to fulfill my current and future expenses?
would it satisfied my mental needs or should I say spiritually needs for years to come?
I don't know.
Somehow, now I just keep pushing myself to move forward and non-stop!
It feels good to excel...
At the same time, however, I just wish everything is just nice and enough. So, I don't have to keep on pushing and motivating myself all the time.
They have high expectation for me. I can't let them down. I must move on.
I never felt demotivated before, even in the toughest time of my job.
I can't say that I'm totally demotivated now. I'm just hoping that my life would be a bed of roses. at least once in a life time.
Who wouldn't? Right?
I just hope to come to a stop where I could really stop myself from over-thinking about taking actions for my present and future life, and doing it!
Tick...tick...tick...and suddenly ................................................
The clock stops to tick.
The time continues to run.
I couldn't turn back the time.
I just have to continue......
to drug myself with purpose, plan, action and motivation!
I just have to continue......
to drug myself with purpose, plan, action and motivation!
Thursday, May 17, 2007
又是一年一度的母亲节了!
很幸运的，我的母亲还健在。
我还有机会孝顺她! 不过，说真的，应该是气她比较多吧!
我，一定要记得珍惜这份福气啊!
但妈妈是不会看到这篇文章的啦，因为妈妈上网只为了看看财神爷要派钱给她用了没! 哈哈!
我还没那种福分，可当上妈妈。
但庆幸的是，有几个小瓜曾叫过我 "阿妈，妈打，mother"。
就连我去监考时(跟那班子女不同班)，隔一天就有人说"你阿妈来了!"
读到这里，你应该可以想像得到，我是怎样的一个灵魂工程师巴!
虽然被叫"阿妈"，但并不代表是一件非常值得骄傲的事啦! 因为"阿妈"代表"罗唆"，而且这"阿妈"常常说:" It's for your own good!"
我也因为这一句"It's for your own good!" 而很荣幸地开始当上了"mother"! 所以我要感谢这部戏"小孩不笨"，如果没有它，我就当不"mother"了! 而给我这荣耀的儿子就是身形像Terry的! 哈哈!
今年，我要在此特别感谢我细心的女儿，在母亲节时还特地献上祝福。
谢谢你哦(还是女儿最贴心，儿子也不错啦)!
至我的妈妈: 妈妈，我会改的!
至我的儿女们: 我会尽力不当个太罗嗦的"妈打"!
我还有机会孝顺她! 不过，说真的，应该是气她比较多吧!
我，一定要记得珍惜这份福气啊!
但妈妈是不会看到这篇文章的啦，因为妈妈上网只为了看看财神爷要派钱给她用了没! 哈哈!
我还没那种福分，可当上妈妈。
但庆幸的是，有几个小瓜曾叫过我 "阿妈，妈打，mother"。
就连我去监考时(跟那班子女不同班)，隔一天就有人说"你阿妈来了!"
读到这里，你应该可以想像得到，我是怎样的一个灵魂工程师巴!
虽然被叫"阿妈"，但并不代表是一件非常值得骄傲的事啦! 因为"阿妈"代表"罗唆"，而且这"阿妈"常常说:" It's for your own good!"
我也因为这一句"It's for your own good!" 而很荣幸地开始当上了"mother"! 所以我要感谢这部戏"小孩不笨"，如果没有它，我就当不"mother"了! 而给我这荣耀的儿子就是身形像Terry的! 哈哈!
今年，我要在此特别感谢我细心的女儿，在母亲节时还特地献上祝福。
谢谢你哦(还是女儿最贴心，儿子也不错啦)!
至我的妈妈: 妈妈，我会改的!
至我的儿女们: 我会尽力不当个太罗嗦的"妈打"!
12/5/07
Tuesday, May 15, 2007
Its nice to know...
We all have our own opinions.
Sometimes, we just tend to keep it to ourselves.
When we are asked about our opinions, maybe we'll tell our true opinion, or maybe not.
When I'm still very naive, I wouldn't accept any opinion other than mine. Though, today I'm still sometimes behave like that...haha!
However, when I become an observer(or should I say an "outsider") of a discussion group, I really enjoyed it when everybody can truly voice out their opinion. It is because we can learn from each other. But maybe not everybody will feel and think the same.
During a discussion, one might not say this but one might think like this,
"I'm right. You must be wrong!"
"I might not be correct, but so do you!"
"You are not with me, so you are against me!"
But have one ever think of this?:
"What a surprise! I never thought there would be people thinking like this!"
"If I were in their position, would I have said the same thing?"
"I'm right but so might they."
"You are not with me, but you are not against me! Thank you for making my life richer by sharing with me your precious opinions!"
After the discussion, can I forget what our differences that made us argue during the discussion?
Maybe yes. Maybe not.
But I'll try to let it go because I shall and I must remember what was the main purpose of the discussion.
It's for the best not for the worst!
It is nice to know that we do have differences!
To me, the differences made my life filled up with different colours!
To All my precious, thank you very much!
Sometimes, we just tend to keep it to ourselves.
When we are asked about our opinions, maybe we'll tell our true opinion, or maybe not.
When I'm still very naive, I wouldn't accept any opinion other than mine. Though, today I'm still sometimes behave like that...haha!
However, when I become an observer(or should I say an "outsider") of a discussion group, I really enjoyed it when everybody can truly voice out their opinion. It is because we can learn from each other. But maybe not everybody will feel and think the same.
During a discussion, one might not say this but one might think like this,
"I'm right. You must be wrong!"
"I might not be correct, but so do you!"
"You are not with me, so you are against me!"
But have one ever think of this?:
"What a surprise! I never thought there would be people thinking like this!"
"If I were in their position, would I have said the same thing?"
"I'm right but so might they."
"You are not with me, but you are not against me! Thank you for making my life richer by sharing with me your precious opinions!"
After the discussion, can I forget what our differences that made us argue during the discussion?
Maybe yes. Maybe not.
But I'll try to let it go because I shall and I must remember what was the main purpose of the discussion.
It's for the best not for the worst!
It is nice to know that we do have differences!
To me, the differences made my life filled up with different colours!
To All my precious, thank you very much!
Monday, May 14, 2007
I want or not?
I want it?
I don't want it?
Before I was able to decide, it has gone!
Do I really want it?
Do I really want it just because it's not going to be mine?
Do I really don't want it?
Do I really don't want it after I've consider all the pro's and con's?
I don't know...
I only know that it has already gone!
At the beginning, I felt hurt.
After a while, I have to start to comfort and encourage myself.
After all, it's not there anymore.
What more could I do?
And, I shall remember what I've told myself last year:
"If you want to be happy, then you must not be selfish (or "count less"), be satisfied with what you have, put it down (or let it go), forgive and forget others." [in July, 2006 archive]
So, now, deal with it and it's no big deal anymore!
And in the end, it's not even a deal at all!
Hahahaha!!!
我要吗?
我不要吗?
当我在还没来得及决定之前，它已经不见了!
我真的要它吗?
我真的要它，就只因为它即将不是属于我的了?
我真的不要它吗?
当我已考虑了所有的好处与坏处过后，我真的不要它了?
我不知道。。。
我只知道它已不见了!
刚开始，我觉得被伤害了。
过了一阵子，我就得开始安慰和鼓励自己。
它，都已经不见了!
我还可以再做什么呢?
还有，我应该要记得我自己去年告诉自己什么:
"但是你要切记哦,要宽心,要快乐,就要少计较,知足,放得下,宽容他人."
[在July, 2006 的 archive].
所以，现在面对它。它就没什么大不了了!
到了最后，它根本就不是"它"了!
或许我应该说是"无"它了吧!
哈哈哈!
I don't want it?
Before I was able to decide, it has gone!
Do I really want it?
Do I really want it just because it's not going to be mine?
Do I really don't want it?
Do I really don't want it after I've consider all the pro's and con's?
I don't know...
I only know that it has already gone!
At the beginning, I felt hurt.
After a while, I have to start to comfort and encourage myself.
After all, it's not there anymore.
What more could I do?
And, I shall remember what I've told myself last year:
"If you want to be happy, then you must not be selfish (or "count less"), be satisfied with what you have, put it down (or let it go), forgive and forget others." [in July, 2006 archive]
So, now, deal with it and it's no big deal anymore!
And in the end, it's not even a deal at all!
Hahahaha!!!
我要吗?
我不要吗?
当我在还没来得及决定之前，它已经不见了!
我真的要它吗?
我真的要它，就只因为它即将不是属于我的了?
我真的不要它吗?
当我已考虑了所有的好处与坏处过后，我真的不要它了?
我不知道。。。
我只知道它已不见了!
刚开始，我觉得被伤害了。
过了一阵子，我就得开始安慰和鼓励自己。
它，都已经不见了!
我还可以再做什么呢?
还有，我应该要记得我自己去年告诉自己什么:
"但是你要切记哦,要宽心,要快乐,就要少计较,知足,放得下,宽容他人."
[在July, 2006 的 archive].
所以，现在面对它。它就没什么大不了了!
到了最后，它根本就不是"它"了!
或许我应该说是"无"它了吧!
哈哈哈!
职责(一) Duty and Responsibility(1)
家里尚有父母，所以要好好孝顺和伺候父母。
这，就是我首要的职责。
我选择了当"人类灵魂工程师"，所以我一定要带自己的灵魂去工作。 虽然我无法帮到每一个灵魂，但是就算有帮到那么一个，也就足够了。
请记得，不是你在帮助或教导他们，而是他们给你这机会互相帮助，互相学习，逆增上缘，不白白虚度此生。
这，就是我的第二自选的职责。
原来，所有的山珍海味，都比不上我将来老的时候还可以随意安心地吃上一顿粗茶淡饭的那么美味和欣慰!
还有，老生常谈的"金钱不能买健康"也是真的。金钱，它能让你买药，但它却不能断绝你的病痛。
口福和健康都是有限额的。唯有知足常乐，好好的使用这限额，才不会等到老的时候才百般的无耐!
这，就是我第三自选的职责。
My parents are still here with me. So I shall treat my parents with filial.
This is my first and foremost important duty and responsibility.
I’ve chosen to be “soul engineer”. Therefore, I must bring my soul to work. Although I couldn’t help all the “soul”, but if there’s only one “soul” that I could helped, that would be enough for me already.
Please remember, it is not you that helped or taught them, it were them who gave you this chance to help each other, to learn from each other, so that you won’t spend this life emptily.
This is my own second chosen duty and responsibility.
All those taste of delicious and expensive food cannot be compared to the taste of common food that I might still be able to eat, without fear, when I’m old.
And the old saying “money can’t by health” is true. Money can enable you to buy medicine, but it will not able to terminate and eliminate your pain and disease.
Able to eat and health have its quota. Only by being satisfied and happy with what we got, and use these quotas wisely, then we will not be so helpless when we are old.
This is my own third chosen duty and responsibility.
The “soul” has the meaning of “…..”. You should know it if you know what my job is! Hehehe….
May 10, 2007
这，就是我首要的职责。
我选择了当"人类灵魂工程师"，所以我一定要带自己的灵魂去工作。 虽然我无法帮到每一个灵魂，但是就算有帮到那么一个，也就足够了。
请记得，不是你在帮助或教导他们，而是他们给你这机会互相帮助，互相学习，逆增上缘，不白白虚度此生。
这，就是我的第二自选的职责。
原来，所有的山珍海味，都比不上我将来老的时候还可以随意安心地吃上一顿粗茶淡饭的那么美味和欣慰!
还有，老生常谈的"金钱不能买健康"也是真的。金钱，它能让你买药，但它却不能断绝你的病痛。
口福和健康都是有限额的。唯有知足常乐，好好的使用这限额，才不会等到老的时候才百般的无耐!
这，就是我第三自选的职责。
My parents are still here with me. So I shall treat my parents with filial.
This is my first and foremost important duty and responsibility.
I’ve chosen to be “soul engineer”. Therefore, I must bring my soul to work. Although I couldn’t help all the “soul”, but if there’s only one “soul” that I could helped, that would be enough for me already.
Please remember, it is not you that helped or taught them, it were them who gave you this chance to help each other, to learn from each other, so that you won’t spend this life emptily.
This is my own second chosen duty and responsibility.
All those taste of delicious and expensive food cannot be compared to the taste of common food that I might still be able to eat, without fear, when I’m old.
And the old saying “money can’t by health” is true. Money can enable you to buy medicine, but it will not able to terminate and eliminate your pain and disease.
Able to eat and health have its quota. Only by being satisfied and happy with what we got, and use these quotas wisely, then we will not be so helpless when we are old.
This is my own third chosen duty and responsibility.
The “soul” has the meaning of “…..”. You should know it if you know what my job is! Hehehe….
May 10, 2007
Friday, May 11, 2007
就让它这么简单吧!
Painted by Kai Teh, 2007 突然间有了灵感，就想画一朵粉红色的花。
画了一朵过后，觉得好像太空了吧! 那再画多几朵好了。
背景白白的，也好像蛮空的也。那再涂上青色吧! 花一定是要在草丛中的!
最后的成品，就不如我想像的了!
算了吧! 差不多每次都是这样的。。。
过了一个星期，我从报章上看到一位大师的作品。
虽然好简单，但 却可以给人一种很安祥的感觉。
原来，简单也可以是那么地美，那么地和谐!
那我干嘛要把我当初的想像给复杂化呢?
于是，我重新再画过那一朵花。
而给了这副画起名为"简约"。
"简约" 1 Painted by Kai Teh, 2007
"简约" 2 Painted by Kai Teh, 2007
只要可以有节制地约束自己，东西是可以简单，简洁的。
(由于我画画的技巧很有限， 所以"简约"1是真的如此。"简约"2是我用拍照制造出来的效果，也是我想像中的画像。希望有一天我会真的画画啦，而不必靠加工!)
Thursday, May 10, 2007
苦，因无法作主。
"心若迷时会很苦，苦在自己无法作主"
证严法师
我就是这么样的一个人。证严法师
很多时候，我都不敢自己作决定。
总喜欢问问别人的意见，再来就是求神问卦咯!
但每当我举棋不定时，我只要想起，或是看到这句话，我就会再次鼓起勇气，谨慎思考，然后作出决定，逼自己负责任!
因为，这句话的前一句是这样的:
"培养面对现实的勇气和毅力，以欢喜心接受一切境界，不要动辄求神问卦"
证严法师
摘自"勇敢面对现实"源于[静思语1]
证严法师
摘自"勇敢面对现实"源于[静思语1]
I can't translate the great sayings in the book "静思语1" by veteran "Zheng Yan" (证严法师) accurately and precisely and moreover, my English vocabulary is very limited.
But to me, it sounds like this "when our heart is lost, we would feel very hard (or bitter). It is hard (or bitter) because I can't decide by myself."
I'm this type of person.
For most of the time, I dare not decide by myself.
I've always liked to ask others' opinion. And for more, I'll go for fortune telling.
Everytime when I'm "undecisive", I only need to think of or see this phrase, I'll again have the courage to think carefully, and then made decision as well as to force myself to be responsible for it!
It is because the phrase before this phrase (by veteran 证严法师) sounds like this "inculcate the courage and endurance to face reality, use a happy heart to accept all the occurence, don't just simply go for fortune telling."
graduation flower photo
Me, with my new digicam, took this bouquet of flower, which is a gift from my aunt for my convocation.Congratulation to me!
Wednesday, May 09, 2007
My Chinese New Year Paintings (2003-2005)
Painted by Kai Teh, 2003The painting with green plant or what my mum call it "Guan Yin Bamboo" was the first plant I brought to university with me during my first year. I had to bring it to and fro from my house when the semester breaks came. However, this plant was already dead (don't know which semester already)! It was also a visible mark for my friends to recognise me because I put the bamboo beside my beg! The bamboo made me stand out from the crowd. My friend actually spotted me in a bus because of my plant! Haha! This bamboo had accompanied me during Chinese New Year 2003!
Actually, this painting was not completed. I should had painted the water in the vase (ice cream cup) too. But because of mood and time, I just left it like that. The writing was added later too when I bought the new brush for caligraphy writing.
Painted by Kai Teh, 2004(5?)The second painting, with the oranges, was also painted before Chinese New Year. Actually, I would like to paint it with red colour because Chinese New Year is full of red colour. However, I was thinking like, um, back in the very very old days, would they be just using the black ink only? And I want to create a feeling like the Chinese New Year was celebrated in a very very old, tradition and moderate ways. The only thing that I was not satisfied with this painting was the word " 春 ". I shouldn't have overlap the word on the oranges. I should have let the word be incomplete so it seem more realistic.
Well, the paintings were just all about my mood! So, just let it be...not so perfect.
Tuesday, May 08, 2007
My first out of box painting 1996
Painted by Kai Teh, 1996As I tidy up my things, I can't find any of my exam papers with flying colours (with red or blue)! I only keep my drawing book and paintings of my secondary school years. Many of my painting and drawing were lost when I moved to my new house. I really regretted that I only come to realize that the things that I valued most, other than friendship and memories, was my work of art (the art here means drawings, paintings...etc but does not mean 'masterpiece').
I'm not an artist. I admit that I don't have the natural talent like others to draw and paint wonderfully, but I did and still do enjoy painting and doing things related to art nowadays! In fact, when I'm in primary and secondary school, the subject I liked most was art! I felt much appreciated if my paintings were hang on the notice board. I would be very happy and proud if my family members and friends praise me for my paintings. And, it is the only subject that I would go around asked for opinion from all my family members. Back then, art to me was all about appraisal and, ... marks, of course!
Now, when I'm not schooling anymore, art just made me feel relax. Sometimes, by painting, it released me from stress and boredom too! I don't force myself to paint certain objects, it's just all about my mood, inspiration and free time at that moment!
As you can see, the title of the painting was 'Suhu Warna' which means the temperature of the colour. It was during Form 3, that my teacher asked us to paint according to the title. I'd always wanted to paint something against the usual real colour in our life, but there were just no suitable title for it (except when I'm in kindergarten and primary school, where almost everything is suitable and acceptable to me).
I tried this title by using the colours that made us feel hot and warm (according to the book, of course), then.....ta da! This painting came out as one of my most valued painting!
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